I dont know why I do it? I dont know how it all starts. Well I guess if I knew that I wouldnt be here. I cannot pinpoint the exact day or year for that matter when sarcasm started flowing from my tongue, or when I started seeing red ! It must have been a gradual phenomenon, because here I am on the verge of turning... 3. (lets just say I am old, and not getting younger), and am not getting any better at controlling my anger and my caustic tongue. It has got me into very tricky situations, and I think I am the worst affected in the situation. But like a wise man once said - words once uttered cannot be taken back. I know there will be others out there, like me who get these uncontrollable urges of temper..and I wish someone would turn off my switch or even put a mute button on me !!!
I would like to think that I have mellowed (slightly) over the years, but hey there is no measuring tape for taking stock of ones tantrum levels...so I can only hope & pray that I stop this tirade before it gets the better of the people I love.
Hope to write about happier occassions in future...
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
Scaredy Cat !!!
I cannot imagine how incredibly lazy I have been. Truly I cannot blame all my inactivity just on my laziness, to be fair I have been busy as well. Anyway now that I have hopped back on the wagon, Let me acknowledge yet another thing. It seems that I have lost all sense of adventure. Yes its true, today my brother,mother,sis-inlaw and hubby can vouch for that. So this is what happened -
We went for a vacation to Mahabaleshwar, which is around 2 hours drive from Pune. This was to be our dose of relaxation, before me taking on a new job. My mom and sis were excited about para-sailing, the younger kids about the horses & camels, my almost 8 year old about the sight seeing points, and me...well mostly I was still in the worry zone. Whats to worry about ?.. several if you are the worry-wart types !
What if we drive off the winding roads ?
What if we get lost ?
What if my inlaws hate the place ?
What if the kids fall sick ?
What if the horses run off with us on their backs ?
What if we all fall into the water fall ?
What if the railing around the sunset/sunrise point breaks...
ahem...I think you are beginning to get the picture ? Well to be honest I did not give para sailing a thought, after all a nutcase such as me, wouldnt try a daredevil act would she ? Thats where I was wrong. My sis managed to woo me into it, and before I knew it I had jumped off the cliff with butterflies (no let me modify that huge leaping frogs) in my stomach. My thoughts were..oh my gosh, I have not drafted a will, my husband doesnt even know all the investments that I have made (not that many mind u !). Anyway after a few minutes of floating in the sky, when I was holding on to my sail with a death grip, the pilot decided to take pity on me, and asked if we should land. Whew..I think I started breathing again with those magic words. My flight down was quite uneventful, though I did have some morose thoughts of getting caught in trees ! (Yes - I agree I have watched too many movies, No I do not plan to give up on that habit)
So if I have not made it very clear with my ramblings - what I am trying to say is that I am not the same as what I used to be before the mommy era..Really I have done quite a few wild things. To quote a few -
Jumping walls, Climbing trees, Sitting on the train compartment entrance (while the train was merrily chugging away) & my favorite one of all times - White water Rafting !!! (being a non-swimmer at that !)
Hence I blame this attack of nerves purely on the "Mom" gene in me, which once has got activated, refuses to turn itself off. Hope some of the mothers out there agree with me ?
We went for a vacation to Mahabaleshwar, which is around 2 hours drive from Pune. This was to be our dose of relaxation, before me taking on a new job. My mom and sis were excited about para-sailing, the younger kids about the horses & camels, my almost 8 year old about the sight seeing points, and me...well mostly I was still in the worry zone. Whats to worry about ?.. several if you are the worry-wart types !
What if we drive off the winding roads ?
What if we get lost ?
What if my inlaws hate the place ?
What if the kids fall sick ?
What if the horses run off with us on their backs ?
What if we all fall into the water fall ?
What if the railing around the sunset/sunrise point breaks...
ahem...I think you are beginning to get the picture ? Well to be honest I did not give para sailing a thought, after all a nutcase such as me, wouldnt try a daredevil act would she ? Thats where I was wrong. My sis managed to woo me into it, and before I knew it I had jumped off the cliff with butterflies (no let me modify that huge leaping frogs) in my stomach. My thoughts were..oh my gosh, I have not drafted a will, my husband doesnt even know all the investments that I have made (not that many mind u !). Anyway after a few minutes of floating in the sky, when I was holding on to my sail with a death grip, the pilot decided to take pity on me, and asked if we should land. Whew..I think I started breathing again with those magic words. My flight down was quite uneventful, though I did have some morose thoughts of getting caught in trees ! (Yes - I agree I have watched too many movies, No I do not plan to give up on that habit)
So if I have not made it very clear with my ramblings - what I am trying to say is that I am not the same as what I used to be before the mommy era..Really I have done quite a few wild things. To quote a few -
Jumping walls, Climbing trees, Sitting on the train compartment entrance (while the train was merrily chugging away) & my favorite one of all times - White water Rafting !!! (being a non-swimmer at that !)
Hence I blame this attack of nerves purely on the "Mom" gene in me, which once has got activated, refuses to turn itself off. Hope some of the mothers out there agree with me ?
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